I got into writing by a bizarre route. Basically, I served an especially creative dungeon mistress for a number of years who was very skilled at creating scenes, assuming different characters, improvising and story-telling. I write stories drawing on the themes of female supremacy, goddess worship, bdsm and fetish. My writing looks at the tensions and contradictions between the dominant and the submissive and explores the boundaries between pain and pleasure, physical and mental bondage and retribution and reward. I’d like to use this blog to describe the relationship between my writing and my bdsm experiences which have inspired it and to describe the strong connection that exists between the two.
I started writing because I wanted to contribute to the scenes my mistress had imagined and add some of my creativity to them and discovered that story-telling was a great way of doing that. It started on a small scale by recounting stories I had made up in my head which got integrated into a session. I remember on one occasion I’d developed a story that was a bdsm version of the Arabian Sinbad tales and, I thought, quite cleverly added the twist of offering three endings for mistress to choose from. She rejected them all and chose one of her own, which involved me getting punished! She could be wickedly ingenious like that. It didn’t take me long before I took some of my story ideas and started to put pen to paper. So, I started writing stories, some of which were presented as gifts to her and there were others which got worked into elaborate story cycles that became part of the sessions. Over time we built up a special rapport, with mistress at times interweaving her domination of me with the writing.
One of the things mistress would do is set me a mission. This usually involved the rescue of a pagan goddess and a set of trials or challenges that had to be passed through to complete the mission. She would create the scene and the key tests, sometimes providing me with tools necessary for completion of the task or introducing characters who would assist me or oppose me. I had to fill out the story, working out how I would complete the mission and overcome the tests laid down for me. There is an extract from a story created in this way as a free read on my web site though the one there does not contain all that much erotica.
For example, on one memorable occasion this was worked into some food submission play in which mistress’s feet were coated with golden syrup which I had to crawl on my hands and knees to lick up off the floor whilst mistress paraded around her dungeon describing a mission involving a golden temple, lapis lazuli key stones, a series of magic gates and other things. Ok, you might be thinking that’s a bit weird but, I promise you, for a submissive slave it was a truly magical experience. After I read the story back when we next met she would invariably find fault with some detail of how I had completed the task (this usually involved my succumbing to some kind of sexual temptation!) and this would lead to a punishment at that or a subsequent session. In this way the story telling was woven into the bdsm experience. Linked stories could take place over several sessions and weeks.
On one session I had been ordered to report back orally rather than by reading. Wrist and ankle straps were secured on me and fixed to the floor and ceiling and, with nipple clamps on, I was told to recite the tale whilst mistress sat on her throne and listened. The whole session consisted entirely of me telling the story, which involved rescuing the Chinese goddess of mercy, Quan Yin from her cruel father who had imprisoned her. I guess some of you might find this odd – you might be thinking why on earth would I do such a thing? I can only say it was a very beautiful and moving experience. It was also very submissive – after all, my place was to serve Her and bring Her pleasure and what better way to do that than tell a story she would enjoy.
Many of the stories created in this way are probably not publishable though I have worked a couple of them into the draft of my ‘Kim’s Adventures in Nemesisland’ book I’m currently writing to create part of the back story for a character. Not all my stories were created in this way. On other occasions I would write something up that I had an idea for or mistress would ask for a certain kind of story. Sometimes in my writing it’s hard to see where the line is between fantasy and real experience but most of what I’ve written, even when it’s something I obviously couldn’t have done, has been inspired by these sessions I attended with mistress.
Although my experiences are unusual in many ways it’s not surprising that such a relationship between the creative process of writing and scenes created by a dominatrix should co-exist so easily. Dungeon mistresses use their powers of psychology, imagination, character, cadence of voice and scene setting, as well as their more obvious physical attributes and presence, to control and manipulate their submissives to their will. Dommes have a wonderful sense of theatre and drama, which at its most intense level goes way beyond simple role playing. You can get a taste of what I mean here by looking at the fetish nun Sister Domexia character created by mistress in the graphic stories on my web site. I know I learnt an enormous amount about the use of language, dialogue, pace and timing from being in and observing the scenes created by mistress. It was an inspiration and privilege to be touched by that and then to go on and translate some of it into my writing. I use the past tense here because, sadly, for personal reasons, I no longer session.
My ‘Dungeon Mistress Adventures’ e-book published by House of Erotica contains four linked short stories describing some real experiences. Other writing of mine can have a fantasy element and can be set in paranormal, fantasy or historical settings.
This is the story blurb for ‘Dungeon Mistress Adventures’:
What is it like to serve a dungeon mistress? What is it like to submit to a powerful, cruel and imaginative dominatrix? Find out in this series of four themed stories involving Mistress Nemesis, her slave, Nano, and her transvestite toy and assistant, Vicky. Follow her as she torments her slave for confessing to using a false name when he first attended her. Watch her as she laughs at the ingenious predicament she puts her two slaves in at an isolated cottage. Revel in her enjoyment as she tortures and humiliates her slave at a fetish party. Finally, look on in awe at the severity of the punishment she dishes out to her slave for his depraved behaviour at the club. Be afraid, very afraid, because these stories contain extreme femdom action inflicted by a brilliant and wicked but fun loving mistress on her slave, whose only desire is to submit to her, whatever the pain and humiliation he has to suffer.